The Wanderings and Ramblings

Title: Circadia
Rating: R
Word Count: 6,897
Warnings: language, brother angst
Summary: It’s like Sam’s dead all over again.  Only this time there isn’t a deal that can undo what he’s done.
Disclaimer: I don’t own any part of the Supernatural universe.

( There’s nothing much to do when backed into a corner than to take the best of the worst ways out, even if that means grasping the hand of the devil himself. )

( my reaction in pictures )

Flist, do you have your daily weekly monthly dose of angst yet?  If not, check out this vid by absrip.  The still art that's used in it is gorgeous and should get a nod just on its own.  But animated, set to music, and paired with clips from the show, it's something to see.  I love the coloring, the sepia tones give the entire vid a sort of ethereal, otherworldly feel, and the close-ups featured in most of the clip selections gives it an intensity and a weird feeling of intimacy that would've been lost otherwise (also, there's that underused overhead umbrella shot from "Scarecrow" compliments of Kim Manners \o/).  The editing is well done and compliments the music; the last 40 seconds are my favorite.  FYI, this is a Wincest vid (one of the best I've seen).  There are manips and some explicit external-source material.  Leave comments for the vidder here.  

A meta by karenmiller got me thinking about Dean and Sam and the overturning of their belief systems since S2 ("HotH") and how that would affect their actions at the end of S4.  I started typing my response only to find I wrote way too much to politely post as a comment (oops), so I'm posting my thoughts here because nobody cares if I pollute my own journal. :D

There are spoilers in karenmiller's post and what is discussed below is based on the 4x21/4x22 preview. 
( Desperate times, desperate measures... )

( -_- )

After months of laying low and lurking on the edges of fandom, I suddenly looked up and realized I've been hiding away for half of the season and we only have four episodes left until the uber-summer hiatus!  And now I'm starting to feel like I'm missing out on all the interesting episode discussions/recaps, meta, vids and ... everything.  :(

The workload is still the same, but I'm realizing that I don't have to do 110% all the time, esp. if it does nothing but stress me out and takes up the little "fun" time I have.  So here's to lowering my personal standards.  *raises glass*  We'll see how it goes starting this week with photocopying intro. pages from a lab book for pre-readings like everyone else instead of completely rewriting my own.  Also, tonight I could finally stomach the sight of meat and was feeling good enough to actually cook an entire dinner.  And even better I ate a little bit of red meat for the first time in months and *looks at watch* so far so good.  \o/  It was SOOOOOOO SOOOOOOOO YUMMY.  Sorry to you vegetarians out there, but meat is delicous, fat and protein and gravy and mmmmm.  *wants more* 

So as I was properly fed and feeling ambitious (and procrastinating), I cleaned out my hard drive tonight and stumbled across never finished fic, half baked meta, and cinematography stuff, and now I'd rather work on that than my real work.  I think my brain is starting to decompartmentalize itself as it realizes the freak out my body has been having for the past 4 months is not going away any time soon.  But more importantly, I found amazing insta-rec vids that I didn't share previously when I was in hiding.  So in lieu of anything of my own complete enough to contribute to fannish glee, I'll pass along these recs instead.

This vid, Somebody's Child, by sabaceanbabe is well done and one of the most unique vids I've seen.  The use of a secondary screen along the sidebar allows for multiple interpretations of the lyrics and lends to its alternating (or omnicient if you look at it another way) POV.  Dividing attention between a large and a smaller screen has an interesting effect, and you'll probably have to watch this vid more than once just to see exactly what's going on.  Also, because of the size of the small screen, to get the intended effect either download the vid and watch it in its original size or maximize it to full screen.  The song catchy, achy, and fitting for a future look back on the "Winchester gospel" (*chuckles* that still cracks me up) and the sequences during each play of chorus are beautifully chosen and will probably make you choke up (but maybe I'm just an over-emotional sap right now).  Go watch, you won't be sorry.



This vid, Kinetic, by maichan808 is gorgeous and flows from clip to clip almost seamlessly.  It's seem to be more of study of camera movement and impressions than a narrative-based vid.  I really like the severe desaturatization and blurriness; I think it fits nicely with the music.  If you want to see some of the most striking pans and crane shots of the entire series (with the exception of the awesome overhead umbrella shot in "Scarecrow" ... more vidders should use that in my very biased opinion) take a look at this vid.

So I’m no longer a SPN Con virgin and A and I got in without our tickets!  :D  I’m not sure if my approach or perceptions of these things are typical or not so I’m not sure if anyone’s interested in my update of the boys’ panels, but here goes for whatever it’s worth.
( No spoilers! \o/ )

In celebration of today, here's a deleted scene from 4x10 featuring our angel of Thursday and his loose-canon side kick arguing about orders from above and Sam and Ruby.  Interesting stuff swirling around in those feathery heads...


On a personal note, things are busy but I'm feeling better.  :)  Hopefully I'll be able to romp around LJ land more in the upcoming weeks and catch up with everyone.  In the meantime have a terrific week everyone.  *hugs*

And thank you to everyone who sent me birthday wishes in one form or another.  It's always nice to get an inbox full of well wishes.  It was a wonderful day, full of some pretty amazing things.

Watch the promo!  From blackjedii.

( O.O )
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Hello flist,

Just a quick post to say everything is fine, but I'm bowing out of daily LJ stuff for a while.  I'll be visiting occasionally, lurking, posting the presents from that last friends meme, and hopefully doing some drive-by commenting.  :)  My response to convo threads will likely be tardy and far and few in between, but please know I still care and want to keep up with everyone when I can.  Even though I may not comment, I'll still be visiting/reading.  *hugs to everyone*

Also, I want to thank fannishliss for her beautifully written fic, "Why Sam Winchester Hates Death Cab for Cutie".  It's lovely and achy and full of that addictive Winchester codependent dysfunction.  Mmm, love/angst, my favorite Winchester flavor.  Thanks again, sweets.  I love it. 

"Sam knows the language. That’s kind of the problem. He’d learned the language at the knee of the boy who’d invented it. A language consisting entirely of longing, loyalty, love, and the deepest need, the most wholehearted self-sacrifice Sam could ever imagine."

OK, I'll bite.  Can someone please explain what's up with all these references to JP and "Gen" and "Jen"?  Is this yet another product of some wanktastic wankitude or something else entirely?  Normally I have a clue, but this just sailed straight over my head and is orbiting some alien gas giant past the Oort Cloud.  Am I going to regret asking about this? 

And why is there not an option for "STUPID" in my mood theme?  Is that not a relevant emotion/state of being for life?  Hello?  Doesn't everyone walk around feeling stupid about 75% of the time or is that just me?  Wait, maybe don't answer that.

( Does this count as meta? )

Once upon a time there was a person who had a very short attention span, no patience for TV shows of any sort, and who--even though she valued her friends' opinions--always found other things to do rather than sit down and watch her friends' TV show recommendations. 

( Read more... )

 Do not watch this clip if you are in a public cafe with a mouthful of coffee.  XD


Perhaps we can think of this as a teaser for the S4 gag reel as I'm sure there's more where this came from.  Compliments of growyourwings. 

Everyone should check out this pair of complimentary vids called "Broken" by sockkpuppett a.k.a luminosity.   It's two vids, same general arc, same song, but two completely different stories.  Individually they're great (Dean's story and then Sam's story), but together they're amazing (Sam and Dean's story).  I love the fact strategic clips were synchonized in both vids and how the visual medium can be used like first person POV/filtering in fiction to show the same events through different eyes.  The construction of both vids as well as the clips selected for the lyrics is well done.  Also, check out awesome sequences during the bridge present in Sam's vid.  Leave comments for the vidder here.


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Title: Dark Spin
Rating: R
Word Count: 5,614
Notes/Warnings: S3 death fic, angst
Summary: Dean knows the difference between a bird navigating the clear skies of the Kansas prairie and a bird trapped in the placid blue eye of a hurricane. Not all calm is the same. Perception isn’t reality. Sam would’ve understood.
Disclaimer: I don’t own Sam or Dean.

( John taught his boys to look out for each other. )

Title: Every Little Space
Rating: PG
Word Count: 962
Notes/Warnings: Set during the pilot.
Summary: Jess watches. Sam sleeps.
Disclaimer: I don’t own any part of the Supernatural universe.

( She fills the space around him )

Happy Holidays!

I hope everyone has a wonderful holiday filled with laughter, family, and friends. May everyone have a new year filled with promise and hope. Here's to a great 2009! *raises glass* Thanks for being such a terrific flist!

My vid rec list is outgrowing itself and sprouting new posts!

( Keep your eyeballs busy during the hiatus )

I've been hibernating from LJ for the last month or so.  We've had a couple of friends visiting for the past week, there have been many pre/post-holiday/Thanksgiving/yay-Nature-publication parties to throw/attend, I caught a cold, and it's the end of the term with mucho marking and writing of exams and panicky/suicidal students (literally, no joke).  Also, pesky things like life maintenance (a vacuum, what's that?) suddenly needed to be done.  A has decided the best way to trick me into suddenly declaring his version of "Jihad" (I know, not really funny except when scrounging around on your hands and knees, picking up rock hard mystery packages wrapped in tinfoil from the bottom of the freezer) on the dust bunnies under the stove/oven and the scary pieces of stuff that didn't make it into the garbage and collect in the back corners of the under-the-kitchen-sink cabinet is to invite friends to stay with us.  Now this house is SO CLEAN I feel like I should take a picture of the spaces between my couch cusions and the sparkling heating duct vents and send them to my mom with a drawing of stick-man victory arms and giant speech bubble that says, "PROOF." 

I've been having crazy dreams, prompting me to patter downstairs in the dark morning and scribble incomplete sentences into my writing journal.  Yes, the writing journal that I have not picked up since writer's class.  I've been getting bizarre urges to write stories again.  Not just a one-shot or something sensible as one would do when gearing up (hello, helmet, meet my head) to get back on the proverbial horse, but giant sprawling plot-driven stories that reach ungodly proportions and teetering heights just in my head.  *headdesk*  And in acknowledgment of my oh-writing-yay-omg-wait-whatamIdoingandwhy? kick, I think I should adopt a personal motto.  These are the ones I've come up with:

I'm an underachieving overachiever who has dreams of one day being just an efficient procrastinator.
Never be reasonable when you can be insane.
Bigger is better ... and BIGGER. 
Driving yourself crazy is entertaining for everyone, especially small children and cats.

And if you're interested, the above dorkery is what occupies my head for about 10 minutes of my hour+ commute to work.  The other 50 minutes or so is spent thinking about sports.  Like the promotional campaign for the new Canadian league of bare-chested hockey ("Pass the puck and be buck!") and the health and safety of golfers using unhygienic ball washers....

( GOOGLE EYES )

( My episode reaction in pictures... )

Anyone in the mood for epic action!boys?  This was the winning vid at Creation Entertainment's SPN Con this past weekend in Chicago and it packs a punch.  Great editing and clip choice, this feels like an extended movie trailer.  Dudes, where's our MOVIE DEAL!?

ETA:  I can't get the high quality version to embed.  Watch by clicking the link under the YouTube video.

hugemind and I have been geeking out (OK, I'm the geek) in fandom land for the past ... months, putting together a project.  It's a compliation of fannish observations, show facts, and meta-ish ramblings about cinematography for each episode of SPN.  We incorporated trivia, various interview links, and some awesome observations that some of you have mentioned in the comments to my spaztastic SPN entries, so thank you, flist, for the great discussions and sharing what you know about The Show.  I referenced everyone (*points to fannishliss, sadelyrate, and zazreil*) and hope it's alright that I did so.  If not, let me know and I'll take your names out.  In the future, I'll be sure to ask permission as I forgot everyone except for sade--who was asked by hugemind who unlike me has a brain--in my flurry of omg-post-this-thing-so-I-don't-have-to-look-at-it-anymore headdesking.  In the meantime, WHOO, click Dean for the link to "The Viewer's Guide for the pilot (1x01)! 

Dear Show,

Please let me know when it is safe to watch you again without cringing and making BHUZ faces.

Thanks. 

\o/    Here's to a renewed sense of hope.